| | I've said before that early morning posts are never useful because it's in the early mornings that I feel the most insecure and uncertain. But I guess that's because I was running from facing the problems which I am aware of, but have never tried to deal with. Now, I understand if you don't want to read this, because like me, some of my friends are unwilling to contemplate the serious but somewhat depressing issues that I raise, and understandably so. Therefore, bewarned, if you overthink the things I'm saying, you may very well end up unhappy or annoyed.
Let's say the average lifespan is 80 years. Most of the people I know have lived out around 20 years of that life, which means that you've lived a quarter of your life out already. Naturally, at least half of that went by without you noticing it, but towards the apex of the 20 years, we suddenly became aware of everything that surrounds us. We ceased to be amazed by the little things, and some of us become cynical about life. But now I ask you, are you happy with how you've lived your life so far?
I, for one, am not. I've used excuses to mask my displeasure with my inability to follow what all humans seem to desire, things which we describe as evolution, or happiness, progress or development. Essentially, people want to grow, we want to improve. But I've always been under the illusion that living life and enjoying what we're doing right now is part of living life. And maybe it is, I have no understanding of how humans are supposed to live their life, but I feel like we should be living with the aim of becoming better, improving some aspect of our life, not staying in the rut that is complacency.
Now, I know that I'm a little different from most of the people I know in the sense that I've grown much slower than they have. I'd like to blame my unwarranted sense of security, possibly derived from my genetic makeup, which is to say, because I'm tall and not stupid, I never feel threatened enough to need to develop any further. But I think I wasn't looking at the big picture. Life is so much more than what I thought it was, which is enjoying myself through pointless activities. I think my purpose in life right now, should be to have "growth" as a driving factor behind my pursuits. For now at least.
This rant is brought to you courtesy of Early Mornings.
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| | Posted 7/3/2009 6:33 AM - 14 Views - 2 eProps - 3 comments
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